There I was COMMITTED to my COMMITMENTS; SHOWING UP DAILY to my blog and my message; MOVING through the FEAR that have previously held me back; Listening to my HEART and speaking MY TRUTH.
WTF happened? Where did I go? Why? When did I take my eye off the prize?
The answer is it was a combination of things. I am not sure what came first but essentially my early morning routine has gone awry.
Yes thats right the one I SWEAR by! The one I KNOW works to keep me FOCUSSED on my goals. The one I made my NEW NORMAL. The one I COULDN’T live without not matter how little sleep I have had because it GIVES ME ENERGY, DIRECTION and RESULTS.
It wasn’t that I actually that I stopped showing up for my morning meditation, journalling and blogging practise it was that I started ‘going through the motions’.
In hindsight I realised I wasn’t being 100% present because I was IGNORING the fear and self-doubt that were beginning to creeping in…..
The sneaky little buggers!
I know that when I DON’T acknowledge or EXPRESS my emotions it SUPPRESSES MY CREATIVITY and my very LIFE FORCE. I constrict. I wilt. I hide. I play VERY small.
But that is NOT who I am!
I AM A LEADER.
I am a leader of my own life. I am a leader of others. A leader of women who also know they are meant for more. Who want to MOVE THROUGH and ON from their emotional trauma to release their perceived limitations and realise their POTENTIAL and their DREAMS. Who need to know that they are not ALONE, that other women do FEEL like them and that is OK to be maternal, loving, compassionate, calm and kind AND feel ANGRY or ANXIOUS, PASSIONATE and DETERMINED. Who know deep down that they have message / gift / talent to share with the world. Who know that APPROVING of THEMSELVES and taking action from a place of PEACE in their own heart will transform their own lives and the world.
So I consciously choose to face my EMOTIONS and RESISTANCE and come back into ALIGNMENT with my heart and soul; my truth and my desires OVER and OVER.
Like a phoenix from the ashes I rise again and again BIGGER, BOLDER, BRIGHTER.
NEVER SAY DIE!
This ain’t no fighting talk. This is MY TRUTH. This is what I am CREATING.
I am willing to embrace my DESIRES and DO WHATEVER IT TAKES OF ME to live a life on purpose and in joy, knowing that this is not only my birthright that my living out my dreams is of benefit to the world.
I am willing to face my FEARS, my ANGER, my GRIEF, my SADNESS; to EMBRACE my Dark Side; to BE vulnerable in order to HEAL.
I have resolved that the FIRST thing I do DAILY is to tune into my FEELINGS and EXPRESS them. I will even assume that some level of Fear/Anxiety and Frustration may reside in my body even though I may not be consciously aware of them.
I see this as providing a solid foundation or a clean slate on which my spiritual and personal development techniques can have a greater impact when uninterrupted by unease or agitation.
As I write this I am reminded again that I HAVE THE POWER WITHIN and no setbacks are PERMANENT nor a reflection of my value.
It is ALWAYS MY CHOICE to MOVE THROUGH AND FORWARD in alignment with my purpose, my truth and my dreams. And I choose to. NOW…….
PS If you KNOW you are HIDING in fear or feeling stuck and that these feelings maybe tapping into your PAST TRAUMA but you are READY to be DONE with that and MOVE FORWARD then JOIN The Dark Side Revolution (Private FB Group)- a safe and supportive space for women to EXPRESS and RELEASE their overwhelming emotions and limiting beliefs. It’s FREE! I truly believe that YOU have INFINITE POWER to create a life you LOVE by HONOURING YOUR EMOTIONS and in doing so be the change you want to see in the world. I truly believe that surrounding yourself with like-minded women will inspire and empower you to do the same. We are not alone. Lets do this together! x