I KNOW what it is like to feel trapped by your circumstances, by your experiences, by your emotions, by yourself.
Inside you are screaming “LET ME OUT! I AM SO MUCH MORE THAN THIS! I HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO GIVE! I KNOW I CAN CHANGE THE WORLD!”.
The BELIEF is REAL. The PASSION is REAL. The PURPOSE is REAL. The INNER KNOWING is REAL.
But so is the VERY REAL LACK OF MONEY or spiralling DEBT. And there is DEFINITELY NEVER ENOUGH TIME to do all the things you WANT and NEED TO DO as a mother, wife, daughter friend, colleague/business owner.
I know what it is like to be caught in this cycle of desire and belief and your current reality that can fill you with panic, overwhelm and total fucking FEAR that you WILL NEVER BREAK IT.
I know that spending time away from your family NOT doing something you LOVE just to pay the bills or because you are qualified to, is SOUL DESTROYING.
I know that IGNORING YOUR HEART’S CALLING and PLAYING SMALL is KILLING YOU.
I know that not knowing HOW to make your BIG DREAMS and YOUR PURPOSE YOUR REALITY is an excuse that keeps you STUCK and to perhaps not even to TRY.
I know that sometimes you TRY SO DAMN HARD to make it happen it feels like you’re peddling backwards.
FRUSTRATION and ANGER are bubbling up inside but you know you can’t or won’t show that side of you. Not in front of your kids, not in front of your friends and family, not in front of the world.
You WILL keep it all IN.
You are hoping, waiting, searching for someone, ANYONE to say, “I know you. I see you. I hear you. It is time NOW for you to shine; to share your message, gifts and talents with the world. I give you permission”.
Only you know that the permission ain’t ever really going to come from anyone else because IF IT WAS THAT EASY YOU WOULD BE DOING IT ALREADY!
Why can’t you just give yourself the permission? Why can’t you keep on giving yourself permission?
You know you have lots of reasons in your past that are difficult to come back from but DAMN IT, YOU HAVE COME BACK FROM THEM!! Haven’t you?
Maybe you haven’t come back from them all.
Maybe you have just learnt to push them down.
Maybe that’s why it feels so EXHAUSTING.
And now that you come to think of it you realise that even if you HAVE come back from them it has been TOTALLY INEFFECTIVE at getting the RESULTS YOU REALLY DESIRE IN YOUR LIFE.
However the emotions and memories are SO STRONG, RAW and VERY FUCKING REAL that keeping a lid on them is debilitating.
So you think to yourself STOP TRYING SO HARD! Be kind to yourself. Give yourself a break. Give it up. Give in. Its too much. Try again tomorrow.
BUT tomorrow never comes.
Instead you focus on your wellbeing and being happy with the way things are and you DO FEEL happy and grateful for the life you have yet still…..
…… YOU KNOW THERE IS MORE!
YOU KNOW YOU HAVE MORE TO GIVE and TO DO IN THIS WORLD.
YOU KNOW YOU ARE MEANT FOR MORE.
You know that the LIFE you see in your mind’s eye; the one that sets your soul on fire, the one you hear your heart speak of when all is quiet, all of that, IS REAL.
What is stopping you is not just the SCARY MONEY STUFF and LACK OF TIME. It is not just the OVERWHELM and FEAR. It is not just the DON’T KNOW HOW or the LIMITING BELIEFS.
It is that ALL of your blocks and limitations are BOUND BY YOUR PAST EMOTIONAL TRAUMA that still resides in your body and memory governing your actions.
Its hold is SO strong.
It’s so well hidden that you don’t even notice it’s there. It shows up in a variety of ways in DISGUISE. You fear what will happen if YOU LET IT GO! How CAN you live without it anyway, it’s part of who you are?
Yet the thought of NEVER being FREE of it, NEVER moving forward, NEVER BLASTING THROUGH YOUR SCARY MONEY BLOCKS and ACHIEVING YOUR BIG DREAMS is TOO MUCH TO BARE.
Finally, FINALLY you reach the point where you KNOW that ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
THIS TIME you really WILL give yourself permission to go for the life you are meant for.
You really WILL go ALL IN and DO WHATEVER TAKES for HOWEVER LONG IT TAKES.
THIS TIME you WILL FOCUS ENTIRELY ON THE PRIZE.
You will KNOW with every cell of your body that it HAS TO HAPPEN.
You SEE IT. You FEEL IT.
IT IS DONE.
Somehow YOU WILL FIND A WAY THROUGH that isn’t fuelled by the STRUGGLE and STRIFE of FIGHTING AGAINST the emotional trauma you thought you had dealt with MANY TIMES BEFORE.
Instead you know now that YOU MUST FACE IT. Every. Single. Time.
You KNOW that you will make bigger and faster PROGRESS when you do.
It requires a BIG LEAP OF FAITH to give yourself the PERMISSION TO BE YOU and KEEP ON BEING YOU.
It requires you to HONOUR ALL parts of YOU; your LIGHT and your DARK; your past and present and future and the desires and wisdom of your heart.
It requires you to reveal and accept your darkness so it can to be HEALED by your light, otherwise it will forever hold your destiny in its tightly clenched fist.
You must face your emotional trauma to OPEN UP YOUR DESTINY.
The PURPOSE, the MONEY and the IMPACT you desire AWAIT.
It is all in your grasp.
Reach out and take it.
P.S. If you are caught in a cycle that is stopping you from moving forward and living out your purpose and dreams then join The Dark Side Revolution – a safe and supportive group for women to express and release their overwhelming emotions and limiting beliefs so they can FINALLY open up their destiny. My free ‘HAVE IT ALL’ CHALLENGE will be launching from the group soon. I look forward to welcoming you on the other (dark) side. x