I admit to not walking my talk recently. Not just a little bit but BIG STYLEE.
I have been feeling and healing a lot of old and recurring emotional wounds which is a good thing but I have not doing what I know do in order to still keep me on track with the creation of my dreams. This meant I ended up totally and utterly LOST and STUCK.
This thing with the uncomfortable LOST and STUCK feelings is that I know really that I AM NOT!! To say I get frustrated with myself would be an understatement which further compounds those feelings.
I was unable to even write about any of it here, not even in my journal. I closed-in and clammed-up. I went into SHUT DOWN.
I am aware that I am unreachable when I am like that. I can function and even seem pretty happy but inside I am caving in.
The more I ‘carry on’, the further away I feel from my true self. It is then that I need to STOP but it is then that I am HARDER ON MYSELF THAN EVER.
Why am I here again? Why didn’t I see the signs early enough? Why didn’t I stop myself from going ‘down’? Why am I sabotaging myself and my dreams by not showing up? Why am I hiding? Why can’t I just love myself enough and keep going? Why WON’T I do what I KNOW to do!!
The frustration and overwhelm builds gathering momentum rapidly. I feel it in my body; neck and shoulder tension, exhaustion, disturbed sleep, sugar cravings, lack of motivation, inspiration and concentration…….
…… EVERYTHING becomes a STRUGGLE.
Eventually I noticed that I was doing too much THINKING and going THROUGH the Motions but NOT my Emotions.
Ahhhh the beauty of AWARENESS! The essential starting point for change.
But how to stop the thoughts when they seem to have taken such a hold? It felt like I had left it too late……..
I SURRENDERED to my feelings. I consciously gave up my thoughts. I released, I talked, I wrote, I ran, I meditated, I gave myself compassion.
I rose again with MORE knowledge than ever before (and there will be a next time and I will learn more from that too) only THIS time I am ready to be of service.
I know and trust now that this knowledge and experience is of immense value. There are so many women who live life in their heads just like me.
Successful, beautiful, intelligent, sensitive, powerful women who need to learn the art of getting our of their head and dropping into their body, their heart, their soul to find their own answers, their truth. Women who know they have a purpose bigger than themselves, who know that they are meant for more, who are committed to doing what they love.
If this is YOU (and I assume it is if you have read this far) then I want to help YOU. I am CALLED to help you. I NEED to help you get this sorted!
So I invite you to join my community in The Dark Side Revolution (Private FB Group) – a safe and supportive space for women to honour, express and release their overwhelming emotions and limiting beliefs to become the creators of their lives.
Come on over and lets GET YOU OUT OF YOUR HEAD AND INTO YOUR LIFE!