Several blogs ago I said that I was aware of my excuses. And generally I am. But I don’t want to seem like I have it all sussed. I totally don’t.
There are many excuses I identified and have healed or can now push aside to do what needs to be done.
But there are many reasons that I am unaware have become excuses.
When I think about putting myself “out there” beyond my comfort zone lately, I have successfully managed to find something more important to do: aka total unconscious self sabotage. I would also go so far to say that my current cold is an avoidance of doing what I say I want to do.
Yesterday unable to sleep for sneezing and nose-blowing, I got up at the crack of dawn and carried out my usual morning routing of meditation, journalling and visioning before beginning to write.
I ended up hours later still trying to finish the blog post. I still wasn’t aware at this point that it wasn’t what I wanted to say; it was what I THOUGHT I SHOULD be writing.
Oh my Beautiful Mind!
My Beautiful but hinderance of a mind. Just when I though I had it mastered, it’s back in charge.
Since my children are on school holidays and we had plans for the rest of day it was a struggle to complete The Blog That Didn’t Want to Be Written. It wasn’t until the end of the day somewhat exhausted that I realised I hadn’t WANTED to write it all along! It was a lot of useful information but not from my heart.
So I missed a day on my blog.
Reason or excuse?
Bit of both maybe. When I think back to my morning routine yesterday I wasn’t entirely present. I was tired, feeling grotty and I was already on the To Do’s for the day ahead. I felt more of a pressure to get the blog post written that usual before the kids woke up. I was going through the motions rather than feeling into it. My mind was in the drivers seat.
I didn’t hear what my heart had to say.
If I had soften into connecting with myself that what I NEEDED was to rest and go slow, I would have dropped into my heart and experienced the beneficial effects of my morning routine and created with more ease and purpose.
The beauty of hindsight! Again.
So today I slowed everything down, tuned in and allowed myself the freedom to write from the heart.
Its simple lesson. But a big one.
My hope in sharing this with you is that it helps you too to identify the difference between some excuses and reasons, your head and your heart.
P.S. I am working on PerMISSION YOU programme and would love to know what excuses, reasons or thoughts get in your way from listening to your hearts desires or your creative process. Please leave a comment or email me: firstname.lastname@example.org. x