My morning routine went awry today for a number of reasons mainly because I overslept and then my getting up woke my daughter up earlier than usual, and so our day began. It threw me off course but it is what is and I had to reschedule.
Showing-up to the things I really want to do isn’t always easy, even with compelling reasons to commit. And just because I show-up doesn’t mean it will happen or that I will feel motivated, focused, creative or inspired or that my desired outcome will follow. It doesn’t mean I will always produce my best work.
The point is I show-up with the INTENTION to do what I set out to do and give it my best.
Showing-up not only means I am committed, it means I am WILLING because I want to make it happen.
WILLING to do the work even when I don’t feel inspired. WILLING to not put it off until I do. WILLING to trust in the process and in the commitment. WILLING to face the blank page or canvas or yoga mat or the wind and the rain. WILLING to face the self-doubts, overwhelm and fears (Will today be the day I am found out? Why the hell am I putting myself out there anyway? Retreat! Hide!).
Showing-up is in fact my RESPONSIBILITY.
Not in a dutiful, hands-tied, gun-to-head, carry-all-the-concerns-of-the-world-on-my-shoulders way or to add another To Do to the long list of other life’s responsibilities but much like how I show-up for my children: because I want to, because it’s important to me, because I am needed.
It IS my responsibility to be authentic.
It IS my responsibility to feel the fear and do it anyway.
It IS my responsibility to fail forward.
It IS my responsibility to learn.
It IS my responsibility to pursue my dreams.
It IS my responsibility to make it happen.
It IS my responsibility to tune-in.
It IS my responsibility to share my message.
It IS my responsibility to give myself permission.
It is NOT my responsibility whether anyone reads or comments or shares or likes or buys or cares.
I am grateful when they do of course because I desire to connect with like-minded souls; feel on purpose; be rewarded, acknowledged, understood and appreciated.
But it is NONE of my business.
My business lies in being a Responsible Show-up.
And so I show-up.